Monday, January 26, 2015

A Few More Dollars

With a few more dollars
I could just fly to you 
A flight much more tangible than virtual words 
Words flying through my mind 
Across my keyboard 
Into your inbox 
A flight 
Where there is a pick-up point
Where you wait on one end  
I wait on the other 
When two light points seemingly broken 
Come back together 
We once departed
But circled back to one another
Our fragmented hearts 
This unthinkable reconnection
With a brilliant flash of light 
Two hearts end 
In the union of each other
One beating heart
You have set your eyes on me 
I have set my eyes on you 
This happened in the depths of our minds eyes
Only to be pushed out with hope and faith
Like birthing desire from an unseen womb
You have known me 
Before you ever saw me
I have known you 
Before I ever laid eyes upon
Your beautiful frame
Your magnetic heart
That drew me from the sea
Pulled me across an ocean
I knew your soul before 
You ever spoke a word
This is beyond anything material
Post-modern love defied
So my heart refuses to rely
On a few more dollars

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Friday, January 9, 2015

Resignation Awakening

There's this profound, mysterious freedom and tranquility that visits me today as I realize my utter inability to leave the island. I'm surrounded by an ocean that's mightier than my desire or will to leave. I'm overruled by this wind that smirks at a determined 6580 tonne, 2370 horsepower ferry. Blowing snow is blanketing nearly every space the eye can see. My will is impeded on every side. "He makes me lie down." My power and choices are mere illusions when something as common as a storm enters my life unannounced. Storms are just one of the infinite variables that awaken me to the Mystery beyond my illusory willpower. Is there anything more liberating as my own resignation as the CEO of this beautiful mess of  this universe I call "my life?" Someone greater than us has got us and I believe that Someone loves us beyond our wildest dreams.

Thursday, January 1, 2015


"All the ancient writings speak of the necessity for our fragile spirit, soul, body life to seek the inner voice or "still small voice....."

NEW:  "1. not existing before; made, introduced, or discovered recently or now for the first time

I found myself wrestling over the last few days with the idea of newness. I have had a few days away, somewhat of a forced retreat into a quiet place. During this time I've  profoundly reflected upon what my existence has been on this planet over the past year.  I've realized a few things that seemed to rise to the surface from deep within, after an extended solitude and journeying within.
As much as we want things to be new because the pages of a calendar turn, the concept of New Year's is only a man-made issuance, which can become a dreaded reliving of what the past year has been, or it can become a recently discovered burgeoning and unfolding reality of Now.  There are some essentials that must take place if it is to be the latter, progressive and new.

Update Through the Still Small Voice Within

My inner hard drive must run new programs, not old ones. In fact, my whole inner hard drive must be replaced.  How?  We must be given a new operating system. We also need new programming. 

Just as we download updates on our Mac's or Windows, we must  download the latest update of truth, peace and harmony freely given and available to us.  This requires a surrender, an openness of mind and an availability of heart and mind---a deep desire--- to receive from our Source.   How? Our human condition desperately needs solitude and an inner focus. 

There is a void of peace, harmony and spiritual power in the outer world. Moreover there is a shocking overload of willpower, stimulation and force offered as a counterfeit source.  All the ancient writings speak of the necessity for our fragile spirit, soul, body life to seek the inner voice or "still small voice", which provides us with all that we need to thrive and realize our ever-present abundance.  Resurrection life is not a future experience but a realization or experience of all of the life that we are living now. If life is not about the NOW, if your consciousness is looking back or forward to something that must be fulfilled, you are not experiencing the resurrection life of Christ in and as you.  

Our present civilization, even modern religion, is pushing us away from best, which is the inner voice by promoting a focus on future fulfillment, Christ as separated from us and coming back, when Christ has never left. Christ is the Seed placed in us from the Manufacturer.   It is only our self-conscious minds that lost this focus of Christ within. We have been duped into receiving from outer teachers and, not chiefly, from a direct download of Christ within. Post-modern religious life is focused on senses stimulating worship, and many other sources that are indeed good, but not best.

The outer world fiercly promotes a fight or flight mindset, which requires adrenaline as we keep watch over what just might happen. A constant download of wars, diseases, economic collapses are the seeds planted in our consciousness and this is scientifically proven to be a destructive force upon our nervous system and organs.

 I have found a storehouse of power as I temporarily retreat, turn inward and receive the life-giving flow from my Source  providing the peace, processing power and discernment needed to reenter the world I presently find myself in.
The Answer

Many are exhausted and reeling from the fight or flight world we live in.  Unable to meet the growing expectations of this world and the corporate consciousness of doing, they do not have the time or the know-how to turn inward to hear the still small voice and to receive the life-giving update of our Loving Source---Christ within,  to be who they really are.  Fortunately, there is a growing number of souls that are forsaking the teachings of institutions that promote force, willpower and other sources as answers, when the Answer is Christ within,  willing and waiting to give us all we need to thrive. Love, patience, goodness, self-control, peace, joy and all the rich and edible fruits for the spirit, soul and body miracle of life.

 New? Year?  Yes, as we discover for the first time---each and ever time we go inward--- the only Source and power we need.  It is here we live and move and have our being. 2015 for me is less doing and more being, that is what  new is when I seek solitude and rest within. 

Friday, December 26, 2014


God's dancing wisdom meets his partners where they are. What humble and gentle movements in union with them, as the mysterious connection of God in man takes its next step. Think of how far our dancing God must humble himself from his high place as Perfect Dancer, yet chooses us, His partners, who have far from mastered the steps of this dance. Only in our minds is the dance not beautiful because His mind is conscious only of the Christ in us and as us.  And this is why I love the dance with God because He first loved dancing with me, even though I didn't move gracefully or know all the right steps. I am so grateful for this dance, but more this Dancer who loves me, even when I don't dance well, or love him back enough.

Friday, December 19, 2014

Love Lives in the Lake of Fire

"Truly our God is a consuming fire. And what does this fire consume? Anything that has darkness,anything flawed, anything that can’t come back to him as is, for everything came out of him and everything will return (Rom 11:36).  He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. It was first HIS idea for us to have life, and to receive of his Divine love. We can’t do it without the return trip (from coming out of him). It’s not unto death, it’s unto life."

One book of the Bible, The Revelation, uses the term “the lake of fire” several times in its finale. With that usage comes visions of a horrible place overseen by a horrible god. While fire is spoken of in numerous instances throughout the Bible, only in the last chapters are there references to a lake of it. While many people embrace with peace the truth of what this lake really is, the vast majority of people who actually believe in its existence do so with fear and trembling. What is the great gulf fixed between these two perspectives?

First of all, the last book of the Bible is “The Revelation of Jesus Christ”. One revelation. Not of a beast, or a false prophet, or a dragon. It’s about Jesus Christ revealing Himself. John writes “Happy is he who is reading, and those hearing...” (Rev 1:3, Youngs Literal) John is continually overwhelmed in the unfolding revelation by God’s plan of love for complete restoration. This plan cannot be seen with the natural eyes, but John was not seeing with his natural eyes. To say that The Revelation is a book of beauty and direction into God, rather than a book of literal harsh judgments is to strongly contradict the opinions and views of the fundamental Christian stance. That’s ok. There is danger in assuming that men and organizations know better how to reveal scripture to us, rather than letting the Holy Spirit lead us into all truth. (John 14)

Now remember this revelation was given to John, the beloved. His gospel is the love gospel. He had been delivered from dying a martyr’s death more than once because of his unique allotment in God’s plan. He was a special young friend to the living Jesus of Nazareth, the Messiah hidden from view. Why would John be given a revelation of doom and gloom? The truth is, he wasn’t! This was a spiritual vision. Visions need interpretations.

The Revelation is written in symbols, and states this in the beginning lines; some interpretations are offered, and many admonitions are given for those "who have ears to hear".  Spiritual interpretations do not come from our natural (carnal) mind, the home of our personal belief system. What we are able to believe has nothing to do with hearing from God. His voice is higher than the voice of our minds.  Secrets contained in scriptures are DISCERNED for us--in us--by the Holy Spirit, so this discourse is under God's discretion. We can read the lines over and over and never "get it". Spiritual truths are hidden from our natural understanding and reasoning abilities; this includes philosophies and religions. The Revelation of Jesus Christ is an encrypted book, but a “gift” of love, for those who seek God in spirit (his arena) and truth (his son).

Forget the notes in the Scofield Bible, and set your sights above the many poorly translated words in the King James version. (Even though God uses them, biased opinions of the time can be hidden there.) Turn a deaf ear to the rantings and ravings of doomsday prognosticators--no matter how many best sellers they have in novel form concerning “truth”. Doesn’t matter how popular TV “evangelists" telling these dark tales are. True evangelists speak good news: the gospel (good news). There is nothing to be happy about in dark, foreboding tales of a despotic god who would just as soon allow the majority of his creation to be tortured without end. No one could love him, but we can fear him. His followers are unforgiving, vengeful, and ignorant. The very traits they hate in others lurk in the pit of their own human nature, awaiting the same fate that we all have. Please read on. This is a message of hope.

For this subject matter, especially, I must address the damage done by history's carnal concepts of the Creator. Religiously influenced opinions corrupt His true purpose and nature. But truth can be found in the seeking of Him on any issue. Even though I do not have the calling of a teacher (that I am aware), I am drawing attention to specific weak points concerning the Lake of Fire in the way religion has viewed it--and misunderstood it.  My intention here, as always, is to put my own experience into literal words, and pray that my heart’s sound will speak as the Logos of God (Christ in me), ministering truth to anyone reading these lines. I have a passion that I inherited from the Son of God, and that passion drives me to introduce the Father of Jesus Christ as He really is, and not as the inferior religious counterfeit.

Have you ever seen an angry lamb? Like the one referenced in Rev 6:16 (for one). The wrath of the Lamb. The concept is bizarre. Lambs aren't known for anger, and if they have any, nobody would even know.  Checking the original Greek "orge" we find a better translation of wrath:  passion. Now that fits. This lamb is the Lamb of God, and passionate He is! Passionate to sacrifice Himself and make sure that his plan is carried out to the fullest, touching every living creature. He is passionate to rid our lives of sin, or Self-Imposed Nonsense (thanks to John Van Tuyl for his wording*), a mistaken identity imposed by our sense of "self". Sin is just the natural life we embrace, separated from our creator by our birth into this realm of death (Gal 1:4). Sin isn't just what we do, it's the result of where we are!  And, this was all His idea--not ours. Romans 8:20 says “For the Creation fell into subjection to failure and unreality, not of its own choice, but by the will of Him who so subjected it." (Weymouth New Testament) Wouldn’t a wise, LOVING creator take responsibility for that? (I already have my answer!)

Back to the lake of fire. Everything is thrown into it that hasn’t been repaired of flaws. Any kind of darkness goes in, including hell and death. Very interesting. Anyone who incorrectly believes in hell as eternal fire just got nailed. (If you didn’t know that hell is not about literal fire, see my article “Hell Hath No Fury”.) And, since death is also burned up, there is only life left. Another category for lake pitching is “anyone whose name is not found in the book of life". Who is alive in this realm we live in? Jesus said we were all dead (Matt 8:22); that’s why there has to be a new birth--one of the spirit. (Remember, this is all about spiritual truth.)

This leads to a final comment from Rev 20: “The lake of fire is the second death.” What was the first? The first death is our status before the Holy Spirit quickens or awakens our spirit. Every person born is dead to God's reality. We live our lives on this planet, but our realm is death. Some people show it more than others, but we are all just as dead. Whether born and raised as an aristocrat, or born and raised into a life of crime: same category--death. Human status separates us from God. The lake of fire will destroy this first death (this separation), and this is “the death of death”. That’s when we are declared alive!

Remember all we’ve heard about fire and brimstone? Brimstone: sulfur. Sulfur and salt were used in olden days for purifying. Fire purges gold of its dross, to purify it. I used to work in a foundry and saw molten iron being purged of its impurities before it was poured out of the furnaces into the ladles. Chemicals were added to bring the “junk" to the surface, where it was skimmed off. Then, the metal was ready. Doesn’t God refine (purify) us in furnaces of affliction? (Isa 48:10)

The Revelation is a spiritual book; the lake of fire is a spiritual lake. This lake is alive, so the living can live there. Who or what is alive, really? I believe that God is the Father of the living, and no death resides in Him. Decades ago, I had a very strong conversion experience. I wasn’t in a church and I wasn’t looking for God, but He revealed himself to me--in a cloud of fire. No words could adequately describe what my natural eyes could not see, yet did see in spiritual vision. I knew it was God, I knew it was Jesus, but His appearance was as fire. The fire warmed and comforted me, and I felt so loved and accepted!

Truly our God is a consuming fire. Check: Heb 12:29, Deut 4:24, Deut 9:3, Isa 33:14, among others. And what does this fire consume? Anything that has darkness, anything flawed, anything that can’t come back to him as is, for everything came out of him and everything will return (Rom 11:36).  He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. It was first HIS idea for us to have life, and to receive of his Divine love. We can’t do it without the return trip (from coming out of him). It’s not unto death, it’s unto life.

A lake (body) of fire (God). God’s servants and ministers are flames of fire. (Psalms 104:4, Heb 1:7, 2 Thes 1:7)  Imagine a mass of people (not aliens or spirit beings) who cover the earth consuming all darkness with their loving, healing spiritual energy (flames). They would radiate hope and have power to uproot evil (not the people, the powers behind them). That is a lake to be desired.

To all who have suffered from the lies of religion concerning the character of God, please take heart! Wherever we are, no matter how deep the hell we dwell in, no matter how impossible our surroundings, God’s relentless (passionate) fire pursues us. And not for punishment, but for reconciliation. There is a day of appointment for all to be raised out of hell. Doesn’t matter where we are or what we have done. All are dead in trespasses until freed from the chains of this death realm. All are equally bound to walk in the dark, even if their lives don’t reflect it. Only His fire (presence) will loose us.

Fire can burn us, or it can warm and comfort us. It can destroy or heal. This fire will only burn and destroy death and all of it’s offspring. Be not afraid to let God’s fire, via the Holy Spirit, draw near. Embrace the flames of love and be consumed by His purging fire. Let your only conviction be that you have believed lies. Eternal torment would be to live without love. That has never been God’s plan. Our destiny is the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, where we will be transformed by Love unto perfection, and it begins now!

- LL Loman

*Salted With Fire by John Van Tuyl